aah went out for a drink but i have nothing to say to anyone. it is all a bit forced. i make conversation but don't listen to what people are saying, just listen to the comforting drone of their voice knowing that i don't have to say anything. i need more time alone, away from people. maybe talk to different people, have a different perspective. that would be good. would life be easier if i just had no friends. just bumbled through life. why is loneliness such a problem? why are we so dependent on other human interaction? must be an evolutionary trait based to our success when living in communities. but then we spend all our time bitching and in conflict with others. do we really enjoy this conflict, are we actually dependent on in? maybe.